THE COLLEGE JOURNEY

Im very sorry i haven't posted in a long time, and probably you are expecting me to talk about fasion, but i need to get something out.
This is my senior year, and im so incredibly sad because i really wished i had my parent support.
Over the years i've always been the little one, the one that gets everythig just because she is pretty and has money, but sorry to say it, but that's just a hole lot of shit!.
i´ve had to struggle with comparissons since the day i was born, "oh her sister is smarter thatn you", "she is a doctor but what are you".
Now that i am about to choose my college i was really expecting my parents to help me out, i out of everyone i wanted, no, i needed them to see how different i am, and that the mistakes she made, the stuff she lived, just the way she is, is not happenin to me.
I want to go to the best school possible, and i know i may sound like a bitch saying this, but there are certain things i need in order to be a good student, is not like im asking for a car or a brand new house, everything that i was asking for was to have my own apartment, maybe share it with a friend; but since my sister stayed at a students home im supposed to do that too.
I am really dissapointed in my parents because they can't see me for who i am.
To be honest with you i have a huge shell that prevents me from getting hurt, sometimes i do act a little distant and i dont talk to anyone, that does not mean that i do that on purpose, or that i'm rude, it's just my way of not getting hurt and i really wish i could say that to my parents but they probably would think that those are some crazy excuses.
I don't know if is their age or the way they were raised, but they don't seem to trust me, they see me as that little stupid girl who is only good at looking good and im over that!
I have tried to prove my value to them, but i should't do that, they should see trough me because they are my parents and they are suposeed to know me better that anyone else, i really fell like im trapped in what they want....and in top of that im grounded for a little party that i had... i really need some advice please i would love to hear you
LOVE GABY